choices...choices...choices

I'm currently facing a dilemma,
quite an unusual one that i've never faced before,
and honestly never thought i would face.
It's honestly a good dilemma though,
it's not one you can complain about,
so i'm not.
But it's a confusing one.
For the first time in my life i'm put in a position to choose,
choose between two boys.
It's quite complicated how i got here.
There was one boy for a long while, but never serious.
We always said no relationship.
Then feelings formed.
The feelings had to have been killed,
so on his orders i killed them and moved on.
Two days ago he tells me,
feelings formed...for him.
I should have been happy,
I should have been wanting to take him up on his offer right away.
But i wasn't and i couldn't
There is someone else.
Now this someone else is fairly new.
We've been talking and flirting a lot.
It could be something promising if it turns out the feelings are mutual.
Or it could just turn into a great friendship.
Either way i want to see what this becomes.
Before i accept the other boy's offer.
But what happens if when i'm ready to accept, he is not?
We will be back where we started.
And i feel as though me turning him down will break his heart.
But he broke mine first,
does that make it ok?
And he says this other boy will turn into a douche.
I'm too afraid to tell him that the other boy is the nicest boy i've ever know,
and i want nice.
I need nice.
But i can't force myself to have feelings again.
Especially when my feelings are for someone else.
Then the relationship will fail right away.
I don't even think the relationship could work with this one,
we aren't compatible,
we are too different.
It sucks,
He's cute
talented
a great guy.
My only issue is he can be a douche at times and doesn't think with the right "head"
Which makes me beyond angry.
which is why we wouldn't be able to work.
But this other boy.
He would never hurt anyone.
He's on the verge of too nice.
It's wonderful.
And he too is very cute.
Tall, dark and handsome.
My dream type.
However, i don't know what this is.
I'm hoping it turns into something.
I could see it working.
Who knows?
I just need time.
Time will only tell how things work out and how my heart feels.
I just hope that by the time i'm ready to choose it's not too late.
Or that i don't make the wrong choice.
oh the choices we make in life,
why must the be so complicated?