Tuesday, March 23, 2010

BIRTHDAY YAY but please fuck off...

So about 20 minutes ago my legalness began.
Today is my birthday.
And, as i'm responding to the already many fb birthday wishes, i can't help but wonder if you will mssg me today.
I don't know why you would but i've been thinking about you lately and wondering if you have been thinking about me too.
This time last year was the beginning and honestly i'm glad it's over.
18 was the year of hell and i just want to forget it and move on.
Hopefully 19 will be the best year of my life.
But still why do i want you to mssg me?
I know you won't, you don't have the balls, but still part of me is hoping.
Even if you did mssg me i wouldn't know that it was you, any of you.
My life is better without you all.
I guess part of me likes to believe that YOU can't live without me because i was the good friend, not the other way around.
So i hope that on this day you are at least thinking of me and the good times and what we had last year at this time.
Maybe it will make you realize what you lost.
Maybe that's why i want you to mssg me so i can respond with...
"HAHAHAHA FUCK YOU!"
I look forward to responding to your mssg if you actually send it.
If not, oh well.
Clearly you still haven't realized what you lost.
But one day when you really need me you will realize that i'm gone.
No longer will i run to you no matter what time it is.
No longer will i stay up to all hours planning something for you.
The year of 18 changed me, i am no longer the same Manda you knew.
Goodbye to you all
The year of 19 will not be the same, i am me without you and with new people.
With a new year comes new dreams, hopes and a new me.
Hello new day
Hello new world
Hello new (legal) me!